Yesterday I saw a girl standing out on the side of the road with a sign in her hand that read “Please Help! I lost my job and I need rent money.”
Now on average this is really nothing new, I mean living in DC and now Florida I see this kind of thing all the time. But this time it was different. This girl didn’t look like the others. She was clean, and very neatly dressed. Her hair was neat and pulled back in a pony tail. Matter fact she looked like she was a student and might have attended one of the nearby colleges.
So as me and some of my friends are sitting in the car waiting for the light to change, we just like everybody else who saw her, we’re discussing whether this girl was for real and she actually needed the help that she so desperately asked for. The whole time I’m noticing the look on this girls face along with her body language. On her face she carried an expression of pure humiliation along with fear. She was scared and I could see it. But still in the back of my mind I questioned if she was conning everybody or if she seriously needed help.
Then I started thinking to myself that this HAD to be her last resort if she in fact REALLY needed the help she claimed. I started wondering what her situation was with her family. Maybe her parents were dead and she had to fend for herself. Maybe she wasn’t from here and she was all alone in a big city by herself. Who knows?
I looked her dead in her eyes as we passed her by, like every other car in the line. I wanted to look into the depths of her soul to see if I could tell if she was telling the truth about her situation. I looked and I saw pain, I saw hurt, I saw remorse, I saw humiliation and even with all that, the thought of her lying just to get money still raced through my mind. Either this girl was the greatest actress I ever saw or she REALLY needed help.
I’m rambling about all of this to say that I probably SHOULD have given her a buck or two which probably wouldn’t have even made a difference but I would have done my part in helping a person in need. It probably doesn’t even matter whether she really needed the money or not, as long as I would have given from the heart but I didn’t. I rolled on by as if to say, without actually saying, better HER than me. But I can’t help but ask myself, what if that was me? And if it were would she have helped? I seriously doubt it. It’s a little too late to play the “what if” game and if I REALLY wanted to help the “what if’s” wouldn’t have even come into play.
All I know is that if that WERE me, standing out on the street and begging would have to be a last resort…my VERY last resort. Luckily I don’t have to worry about rent, but it wasn’t always like that. And I remember what it’s like to worry about how you’re going to pay it. A way was always made, and thank God I never got evicted or thrown out but that’s not to say that it couldn’t have happened. It could happen to ANYBODY who has to pay rent and lost their job.
Since I missed my opportunity to help a person in need the only thing I can do is pray for her. It’s a shame that the world is so corrupt that you can’t even trust that people are truly in need when they say they are. Now the Christian thing to do would have been for me to give that girl some money, and share with her what I had, but honestly how many of us would have done the “Christian” thing in that situation? There were 10 zillion cars sitting at that light with me and the people in them were probably wondering the same things as me. Yet not one of us gave her a dime. I don’t even want to talk about the “Christian” thing to do, because there was a preacher driving the car in front of me (I know this because I have seen him preached) and he didn’t give the girl anything either. In fact when he first saw the girl he acted like she didn’t.
I don’t know if the girl REALLY needed the money or not, that’s not even relevant anymore. The fact still remains that I saw somebody asking for help and I didn’t. I was too worried about her trying to con somebody when in all honesty THAT shouldn’t have even mattered.
Aaaahhh well, if she really needed the money for rent I hope she gets it. But if her ass was faking the funk I hope she burns in hail for making me feel bad that I passed her by.
I think I just missed a blessing…..