Twisted Fate (Part Deux)
She came to me from a distant land to fill a void that my heart’s desired ever since I lost her. She’s as eloquent as they come; a symphony of word and thought she brought forth in tones to make my light heart sing for all the beauty that, with her, I have found. This unexpected encounter gave my heart a glow, that few have seen and only she ever will know.
I called her before I left town; I told her I would be coming to her area and so we should meet. My heart definitely was set on seeing her again; we hadn’t seen each other since the first encounter. I wanted more. I wanted to explore her in person and not just over the phone/sms/facebook. After all, I wasn’t going to be there for too long, so I needed us to spend some time together and figure some things out. I think I needed clarity and possibly figure what the next step should be.
On the flight there, I wrote down everything I wanted to discuss with her. I still couldn’t help but smile every time her smile came to mind or when I thought of past conversations. She is a funny person and she has the most captivating voice a man could ever hear. I knew there were a lot of reasons why she captured my heart the moment our eyes met. My heart skipped a beat and I didn’t dare turn back again.
So upon landing, I rang her to see when we could finally link up. We settled on a time and place. She told me we had to wait for her chauffeur to pick her up and that she would call. I waited for the call that it never came. I called her…she was busy. She had an appointment that being on a tight deadline she couldn’t miss. I was cool with it. So I waited some more.
I’d like to sit here and tell you that it didn’t affect me, tell you that my ego wasn’t bruised… that I didn’t feel like complete shit… but I did. I had made this woman a priority and here I was feeling like a burden. Had I listened to my head, I wouldn’t have been in that situation. But my heart wouldn’t let me give up and not link up with her.
So the evening before I left town, I called her again and asked if she would be free to meet. She wanted to but her driver wasn’t around. So I waited…and waited…
I fell asleep waiting.
She called to tell me she would be coming my way…i dismissed her; I had my reasons.
Although I miss you every day and wish more than anything to be yours, I have to face reality once and for all and realize that you may never be mine.
Disclaimer: She and I had a chance to link up. I turned it down.