I woke up in a complicated mood. I had thoughts of seeing you soon but I’m not sure I’m up for that anymore. It’s kind of strange because this is the first time I honestly recall these feelings. The memories cease to exist anymore. To look through the pictures of strange times it’s like a picture of water cannot describe its taste. My taste is forgotten but the picture remains and while it looks good, I cannot be certain for it has been a while since I’ve drunk that drink.
Sometimes I concentrate hard on trying to remember the little things and sometimes I come up with a moment that we had. The moments too, are gone. I’m powerless now. I cannot hold on anymore. Time passes and washes my memories away. My mind, blank and clean- a brand new day but I know you existed, in my life- at a time. A song, word, or action- brings a flash of an instant. In that instant of your existence, in my mind, I wished and wished again that you would stay but you never do.
All I’m trying to say is that
I miss you